Sunday, October 18, 2009

When there is no extended family

Today I sat and thought about what my life was like before I had children. I looked back and thought Wow! Is this where I was fighting so hard to get to. Due to my own childhood lacking a lot of things. My dreams were always to have a large family and help others like me. I love all my children very much and supply them with all the love and support I never received. Still, there is a little part of me that longs for extended family to be part of our lives. My family wasn't very big and the family I grew up with has passed on. My husband family we were never close to and they live in a diffrent state. So, I feel bad my kids don't have the luxuries of grandma, aunts, uncles, and cousins. Though my husband could provide this if we had a closer relationship to his family. I could not. I never had extended family either. I remember watching friends that had siblings and cousins. I hated being an Only child and still do. I love my life and my family. It would just be nice sometimes to have a close relationship with someone on my level that offered support. I have tons of childhood friends but, we are all on diffrent paths in life. There is not much we relate to anymore. People feel I'm diffrent and I am. I grew up and have experienced a lot of diffrent things and embraced them. I moved on with life why a lot of them are standing still. Seeing things from a diffrent prospective shows growth and development. A lot of people don't understand that. As my life becomes diffent from theirs I am now the boring one. Sorry if being family orientated seems boring. I embrace it whole heartedly. I do long for a close friendship with someone whom we share some common interest. I meet and talk with people all the time. It just seems like everyone is not taking new friend applications and not welcoming newcomers. It's like being that outcast in high school. You just don't fit into anyones clique.

1 comments:

  1. Well...you have us at SNA!! I wish we were all closer in location. I know how it feels when it seems like people you meet arent "taking freind application". I can relate to that. Dont feel bad because you have grown and moved on....that is what you are supposed to do!

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